Four months. That's all it takes to have your heart shattered into pieces. Being honest, this is not the very first time that I have my heart broken but in a way, this one is a complete shattered one. How did it come to this? Why did it come to this? So many questions need to be answer and none of it is the one I'm searching for.
One year and Nine month he said, we had a great relationship he said but still, it didn't cut up to anything. Four months I've been dying myself with all the questions and were never answered and right this moment, I get what I want, the answers to everything. But why am I still hung up about it? Because I can't accept it, not yet.
Looking right at him, I could see how cold his heart is, how he doesn't even care what we had or what we've been through. All of those promises that we made, those love, kisses, hugs, it all meant nothing. His eyes were soulless to me, empty and also his words.
I am not lying when I say I died a little more looking at him, feeling nothing for me but at some point, I didn't broke down. I was strong. My words were firm, clear but I still couldn't express how I've missed him, how I wish I could do everything with him and tell him what has been going on. I couldn't, it would be selfish of me to do so since he strongly said that "It's Done".
It really hurts to know that the person you were longing for for almost three years and finally you had him but it was unfortunate enough that it only last for one year and nine months is not yours anymore. It hurts to think that you couldn't be his shoulder to cry on, you couldn't be there for him anymore, you couldn't cook his favorite dish anymore, you couldn't take care of him when he's sick anymore, you couldn't rub his back just so he could fall asleep anymore, it hurts when you couldn't love him anymore.
The closure that we had were clear, we are in a good terms. It helps in a way that I wouldn't be awkward if I see him in the streets or in any mall. I could face him and be strong for myself. Even if so he would find the right girl for him, I could only be happy for him and be proud for what he'd accomplish in his life.
Like he said, maybe we'll cross path in the future.