Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

it's been 3 weeks now. yeah, i am hairil free. maybe deep inside i still have feelings for him but this is what is suppose to be. this is what's the best for us. maybe it's hard to make the decision but it has to be done. maybe i am the bad guy in our story man but i know in any way, Allah has his own plans for us.
If it's meant to be, it will be.

The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you. They’ll probably make you hate me forever. You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue. This changed me is a stranger to myself as well. You are so kind but that’s the way you are but I don’t know why I am like this. We were so in love, and you’re here now but I don’t know. I want to find myself now.

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely. I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person, horrible person I am. I’m sorry, this is your and my story. I must not be worthy of this thing called love.You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one. It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup. I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I’m confronted by love. I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly.

Cause I’m just another girl.