I never thought that this very day would actually come. I never thought that I would face this day and the hardship of it. I'm going crazy, I am officially out of my mind.
This past couple of days, my mind keeps on wondering around, thinking hard of what I am feeling. I admit that he had fucked my mind up. I just don't understand. Then I thought to myself, should I even think about it? He's nobody now. He left. Just ignore him.
As much as I wanted to, I don't. My minds says no but my heart wants him, so bad it drives me crazy. It shocked me to be honest, that I still have this feelings for him after 10 months of not seeing or talking to each other.
It has been 2 days, that we've seen each other, talking again. And those 2 days, keeps my mind going insane. I've been thinking of what I am feeling is true or is it not. I keep reminding myself of what he had done, the fact that he left me and the fact that he broke me. But I didn't want to care. Part of me just want to hold him, care for him and never let him go. Part of me just wants him to stay, where he suppose to.
Such foolish, stupid girl you are Nafeesha. People keep saying that to me. They say that if he can do it once, he can do it twice. But I don't buy it, I know him, I know that he wouldn't do that without any cause. But would I risk my heart for him again?
There's a lot of things that I am not sure of what I'm feeling but for once, I actually do know that "I would put a side everything for him".
