Aug 5, 2016

05081993

12:15 AM
On this day, the love of my life were born. On this day, God has created the best person I have ever know. Happy Birthday to you.

Knowing that how unfortunate it is for me to not be able to say this to you really hurts a lot. A year before, I was able to give you the best birthday celebration ever. A year before, I said everything that I could to you, how grateful I am to have you in my life, how I wish I could celebrate this day with you for as long as God is willing and I love you so. 

But this year, God wouldn't let me be right next to you, wishing you your birthday. God wouldn't let me ask you to blow up the candle and make your wish. God wouldn't let me kiss you on your lips to show how deeply in love I am with you. This year, I could only wish you a happy birthday here, in this blog. 

We could've spent the night the the Lexis Hibiscus, Port Dickson at this very moment, like you wanted to. You could've had the best day of your life with you best friend but I guess you still do. The difference is, it's not with me. The girl you choose will be the one, right next to you, handing you your birthday cake and ask you to make a wish as you blow your candles. She will be the one to say that she's glad that you're with her and that she loves you so. How envy I am of her. 

But then again, this is what you want and I couldn't be more happy for you and your life right now. If happy is her, I'm happy for you.

Happy Birthday.