At some point, I really got confused with what is going on. Why is this happening to me? Why am I feeling this way? How can I overcome this type of emotions? and at some points, I thought to myself that I am just overthinking things when actually there is nothing to think about, it's just me making stuff up inside my head.
I feel like my head is going to explode.
My mind and my heart is acting weird. It got even worst as the night began to darken and my eyes starting to get heavy. But yet, my mind would wonder around the things that could possibly be starting with the 'what if' situation.
I wish I could turn off my feelings just like a switch button.
What I am feeling right now is really something that I couldn't even avoid or ignore. No matter how hard I've tried, it end up coming right back at me, haunting me and stuck like a shadow that follows me around. I can't stop. I can't do anything about it either.
I need to find a solution.
But how? For 23 years of living, I noticed that each and every year I grew, there would always be a question to be asked and yet no answers to be found. For instance, like this very moment;
How can I Stop Liking Him?
A simple question but yet again, a completely failure to find the answer. What I get from everyone that I've asked is that "Trust in Him" which is a really good answer but still, how can I force myself to stop thinking and start trusting?
'Time and Patience' they say.
